April 26, 2006
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So….
Another “fun filled” day of working 2 Jobs….I got a 2hour break between them 2day & I sat & pondered many “brilliant” thoughts pertaining to my future,what it could possibly consist of & who would be in it.A few people without a dought I know would be there would have 2 include(but not limited to).Immediate Fam,Ray,HEavyweight,LilBit & definitly Tracy.Its crazy cause alotta people been thru alotta of physical and emotional pain.People claim i’m strong but they fail to realize mentlly I’ve been thru 10times more than the average person.People don’t believe me when I say that I’m constantly thinking & thinking & thinking.I can’t help it because If u knew what I knew & thought what I think u would 2.Its CRAZY cause Tealeasecia really said she would wait for me….REWIND.
She said she would wait for me EVEN if I wasn’t interested in pursueing/nurturing our current relationship.Now thats DEEP.The fact that I actually know 4 a fact that I’ll have someone 2 hold me down is somewhat of a gift and a curse.Its crazy cause 4me to be so “self conscious” I really don’t worry at all about her talkin 2any1 not “worthy” of her cause my shoes would be some pretty lil but big shoes 2 fill(meaningful none the less).I’ve never felt this way before….Not carefree or “Careless” persay,I’ll settle with balanced and content for the sake of time.Today is OFFICALLY my last day of college! Will I break under pressure or rise to the occasion? Lord knows LoL but I’ll be sure & keep u tuned in 2morra.God is Soooooo Good & Powerful.Any1 can make “big things ” happen & make meaning of large things but it takes true skill & craft time & time again to masterfully create the little things that line up daily & make the big ones possible.I definitly serve the most-high & many times I find his blessing reigning upon me nowadays.I have life,I have love,I have leisure & I have likeability LoL.What more could I ask for.He gives me everything & even more wants.Hes a pretty fly guy if u ask me.I’m bout 2 rest so I can get ready 4 this big day but I’ll talk 2y later
