June 2, 2006
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Growth Spurt!?
Good afternoon.I dunno if I’m changing or my surroundings are but alot seems unfamiliar and inconsistant now a days.Not really complaing but definitly a concern cause as humans we are habitual creatures(or atleast 95%) so when habits,tendecies & regular routine is broken many have a difficult time adjusting to it.Me on the other don’t reallt have a dificulty adjusting,but I definitly don’t like 2 adept at certain points of things.I guess if I could control all I wanted 2 then the world would be alot better place but all is well.Lasnight the old crew came thru & we played 360 till about 4 in the morn.I was fun jus havin all of us together like the good old days.I miss those….Me and love are still together…its funny cause she’s the only person besides my mom who can make me smile yet make me frown but all in all I still Love.Guess thats a sign for future entries but nothin is promised now-a-days.I’ve come to the conclusion in the event of my death in the military I don’t wanna have a big funeral cause It would hurt many around me….with that being said I will be all I can be and do all I can do to stay alive & keep fighting cause I refuse to hurt anyone close to me with something I have minimal control over.My moms gettin better,it makes me smile when she’s havin a good day cause I kno shes pain free & thats good.Me and parker are doin pretty well.I see more than ever the unspoken care he has for me cause lately thru his speech and body language I can feel the love leekin out LoL but its cool.I’m REALLY gonna miss those close to me when I leave.Its weird cause I long for this moment of happiness and peace to never end yet day by day I get more anxious to leave and challenge & prove myself for my country.I’ve contemplated backing out many times thru testimonies & facts presented 2me but I also have decided that will NoT happen jus cause I thought & prayed to long and hard to turn back now.”Don’t run from adversity,instead face it and conquer”.I find myself angry and confused as of late cause I try to reach out to certain people yet they show no concern or care for me when I do & as a consequence those who are reaching for end up on the short side of the stick so now I’m focusing on those who focus on me.Times to short and lifes to good to jus stand…I go back bowling next week!!! Its been awhile
I kno I’m rusty but I’ma have to get over it LoL.I can’t wait till nex week cause I will officially graduate 
. I’ve been waiten all year and I’m finally here.All in all life is good & all is well,I wouldn’t agree that things are perfect but thinking about it why should they?I guess I should get back to work cause this house is a mess but I jus wanted to vent & express How I’m feelin at the moment since everyone else is so busy LoL. Till the next we speak I’m ghost.~
