June 7, 2006
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June 6thm 7:11
Despite my efforts I’ve slowly become less dependant towards people 4 happiness…..Its quite refreshing to write my feelings down & let them be judged by canvas instead of concerns or convictions.I realize more than ever that I Love her yet it seems things are still uneasy between as a whole.My mom called me 2day jus to say “hi”.I think after lasnight we’ve grown closer.Maybe something of the same stature will happen between me & parker…….Life is good despite what others say or think.God is good & he’s a pretty cool guy the more I think about it.I’m goin 2 see V for Vendetta again so ill talk 2ya 2night….
June 6 11:52-Officially now I’ve seen my favorite movie twice.Officially I saw love 2day a we’ve acknowledged certain criteria & mis-comprehensions between ourselves & similar situations that pertain us as a whole.I Officially feel the true essence and meaning of love in my life again & I officially feel the pain and anguish as well as the pleasure and astonishment that comes along with it.I’m officially reckognized as the person I am on a more regular basis and not the persona or misconception that goes along with my outer appearence.I don’t have 2 wake in the mornin so mostlikely I will rest and enjoy leasure time…..I’m Officially regaining my joy for the simple fact me and Love are both working towards getting things on the right track.Its hurts to think of what may become of the future but I guess that’s jus life…..I smile inspite of what I endure & go through because I keep in the forfront of my mind that it always could be better but even more it definitly could be worse.I look forward to the day I leave yet even more I fear & coward as it approaches.Guess nothing is ever as it seems but when I think about life in general when is all as it seems? All in all I’m living a good life and I couldn’t complain unless I chose 2 be ignorant and selfish at the moment.Tonight I will take the long way home as I admire the vivid city lights & all its glory and splender.Thanx for being here as u have 4 without I would most likely be nowhere near as centered as I am 2day.
Davy bka chadwick~
Comments (1)
hey i miss u…dont really know if u will ever see or read this but i miss the heck out of u. i miss our talks at night and the random little jokes u would send to me and the hopes of maybe seeing u again sometime or hearing ur voice sometime all kinna sacrificed to growing up…growing up and not really looking back. if u ever look back just know that im here always and forever. goodnight. i pray for u chady, i miss u dearly.