April 9, 2012

• Euphoria

  Dictionary.com defines it as “a feeling of happiness, confidence, or well-being sometimes exaggerated in pathological states as mania.” In my own words I guess I would call it the usual…. Love. I’m so excited with life on a daily basis I wonder if I’m going crazy or is this what bliss should feel like. Either way it definitely helps when physically placed in a dessert in the middle of nowhere. Ironically a country that has endured so much war has some the most beautiful sunsets and star filled night. I’ll try to expand in another post…. As far as the topic on hand I’ve tried to pinpoint some of the reasons that are attributing to my happiness. Here’s what I have so far…

  1.      Transition: My contract with the military ends 29 November 2012. I’ve said it again and again and personally I don’t think I will say it enough. For me it’s a BIG DEAL. I’ll be 25 this November. A month after graduating high school I joined the Army. I’ve known nothing but this lifestyle for my entire young adult life. Not only do transitions in general excite me but the fact that I actually have a plan and things to look forward to make it even better.

  2.      Companionship: I’m a Lover. It is a well known fact the appreciation and irreplaceable passion I have for people of the opposite sex. I have many female friends and value them greatly but there’s nothing like having something more. I have an acquaintance from high school who I’ve been talking to recently. We never really spoke more than “hi/bye” but it was enough at the time. Fast forward 5 ½ years and I find the courage to start a conversation on Facebook. 3 months from that I ask for a phone number and we began to chat thanks to Google Talk. It’s going on a little over 2 week’s now and I guess the appropriate term would be infatuation. Whatever the proper term I feel refreshed. When I get home she’s going with me to get my septum pierced and taking me to my first West Indian restaurant. I’ve even come up with the ingenious idea to add the days that separate our birthdays, divide by 2 and we will celebrate together in D.C. before I head to Thailand. Without going on and on the point is it feels good. It feels good to show interest in someone and they have a similar interest and intent. It feels great to be able to show 100% of me and be accepted for it. In closing it feels… enough said ^_^

  3.      Communication: I’ve always had a passion for sharing my thoughts through writing. The last few years seem to have flown by and I’ve failed to write for any consistent amount of time. I’ve pledged to write at least once a day unless I have no internet connection. In the event that happens I still maintain a journal on my laptop. Not only does it feel good to write it allows to me keep track of what’s really going on in my life. The things that matter, the things that don’t. The people who influence on a daily basis and even those who do so without ever knowing. Creatively this has “re-kindled” my poetic flame as well. I don’t think I will become famous with my work but I do believe I have a way with words that paint beautiful pictures at times. Poetry enables me to share and communicate with others as well as self. On the journey of unconditional Love communication not only leads to insight, but forgiveness. Learning to forgive not only others, but myself starts with being able to openly acknowledge what I subcontioustly/consciously ignore. More times than not this acknowledgement comes from my poems when all else fails.

  4.      Xanga: yes this wonderful site has and continues to help expand my happiness! There are a lot of interesting and knowledgeable souls amongst us here. Whether I agree or not is meaningless, the fact that there are people who share unconditionally is humbling and inspiring. It makes me want to be a better me. Even more a better blogger so when I share others can find something of value as well. I’d also like to give a special shout out to my Xanga friends. Although I only have a few they made my day just by clicking “accept” ^_^ @SoundofSapphire , @TimeHasNoMeaning , @HushNowLuv , and @Life_of_Nora.  An even bigger shout out to @This_puzzle_called_life for posting my first comment. With her acknowledgement I felt a part of the community again (I’ve been a member since 2006 but pretty much was on hiatus from 2009-2012)

  All in all I’m happy, healthy and patiently awaiting my return to the US of A. For all of my brothers/sisters in arms I encourage to stay motivated and when things get dismal remember the reason you signed up for. Whatever the reason, let it uplift you in your low times until you can return to the place (physically, mentally and spiritually) you belong.

  Peace. Love. Light.

  “We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts we create the world.” ~ The Dammapada ☮ ♥ ☼

   

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