May 16, 2007
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It hurts when you realize actions speak louder than words and you look at yourself the past few weeks and all you hear is yourself…Blah.This enviroment is definitly the biggest catch 22 I’ve come accross since my decision to join the army. I’m strengthened thru self and few others but mentally I’ve began to get weak. I’m on a suicide dash with my back to the future and facing the past that molded me into the young-man I am today. I’m definitly excited to be back in the studio cause I get weird when I can’t express myself thru the music….I was damn near about to relapse after A.I.T.
I’ve been busy as hell with work.Alotta preperation for transition has been goin.I’m dare say i’m worried but If I said I wasn’t I’d be lying cause this time next year I’ll be in the sandbox where the kids never play nice and when the streetlights come on I won’t be goin home 
….On a happier note tho I smile inspite of cause July7th are comiin over!! I’m very excited….they are to. They have it in there heads that they jus gonna splurge but when they realize this Euro ain’t no punk they’ll realize why i’m still broke all the time lol
Lately I been on the rebound i’d have to say, between my Wii and rapping my pockets still keep caking so I can’t complain.I’ve come to the conclusion where I’ve got a really hard time with moving forward from fond memories…like i stated earlier my backs to the future and with my face to the past. It was always conscious in my mind but It’s really hit me in Germany cause all I do i think of the “good ol days” with Heavyweight, the BP streetteam, even all the way back to lakeside lol and I wonder what happened to all that. One thing that hasn’t changed at all althought I’ve tried is Love…It still respects me to stay in forfront of everything I do just because that is who I am. I am love for others even when there is none for me. I feel myself emotional spread to thin at times cause I’m that dude who’s intelligent & goofy, serious yet comical and somewhat materialistic yet of substance so I guess I have so many condradictions with people….cause often its me who contradicts self. It’ll be better with time I guess. Thanks for listening as alwaysDavy~
