February 27, 2008
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R&R march 2008
Ever felt alone in a room full of friends….I feel like that EVERYWHERE nowadays and it sucks….I thought coming home would put me in a more “comfortable” social and mental state but honestly I still feel just as if not more awkward here cause these are my fam, my friends, my bloodline….and I still feel like the “outsider”. I almost get there jokes and Im pretty good at guessing who they’re talkin about, I’m still flyer than the average astro but It seems every puzzle I almost pice together is missing a piece entirly. Maybe its just the initial shock of me coming home but as of right now all I want to do I CANT and all i need to do I’ve done and isn’t helping….maybe my mini V to Wiesbaden will bring clarity tp the situation or maybe what I’ve feared most has come to manifest…Move on and Move strong!? Naw…..I’ma heavyweight regardless,my team is the strongest and those who have been loyal and trustworthy deserve and need me just as I need them. Growin up is weird…I coulda SWORE a few more people would be aroun these days but I guess “it is what it is”. Time to get ready for lunch with a stranger HA! The army has changed me….I think its so bad cause everything else is just the same when subcontiously I’m thinking everyone has changed also but really it hasn’t…much, things are just the same…I thought that would be good but maybe thats the problem….definitly gotta study abroad when it comes time…More tattoos on the way if necessary but right now its back to the music….Long time no speak old friend. The department of defense doesn’t condone my mental well-being by writing to you so I havn’t lately but you understand. As you always do
18 till the world keeps spinning
