Bad decisions Good intentions
6am I see the Sun rise
My Angel awakes to French kiss
My initial thought? Tongue tied
My perceptions are reality
Fear is just Fallacy
Everything feels right
Although I have not measured this by degrees
I meditate. Deep respiration
It seems Love is my destination
Colors shown in hue’s
I acknowledge all but blue’s
I try to depict this by taking pictures
Yet all these words, shape’s, and figures
Can only be depicted through a Muse

Inspired by www.this-puzzle-called-life.xanga.com/  this-puzzle-called-life@xanga

Due to my obsession with multiples of the number 11 I decided with 33 instead of 31 ^_^

1) I was born November 22nd, 1987 –> My Sun is in Scorpio and my Moon is in Sagittarius

2) I love living overseas and experiences new cultures. So much in fact I’ll be attending traditional college in Thailand next spring.

3) I want to grow my hair out. My intentions are to start my locks no later than January 2014.

4) I am legally changing my name. I will no longer go by Chadwick Ellison Bromley.                                    DavJeon Chadwick Xavier (one day PHD)

5) I don’t have the best memory. It works in loops and often against my benefit lol. To combat this I take a lot of pictures and try to write often.

6) I love meeting new people no matter the circumstance.

7) I love to bowl. I haven’t been active since 2009 but before I stopped I was at about 188 average between 3 bowling leagues.

8) I do not like a lot of cookies, cakes, pies etc, however I love chips. Especially plain lays.

9) I do not intend to have children. In the event I do I feel the first will be a girl. I will name her “I Love Xavier”. Subsequently I will be forced to have seven more so I can name my eighth child Octavia/Octavian.

10)  My parents and I differ in opinion about many things but remain the most supportive people in the world. For this they will always have my unconditional love and respect.

11) I can partially speak German and Japanese. I can tell you your beautiful in Spanish, German, Japanese, American Samoan, Portuguese & intuitional love lol.

12)  My “desire” for knowledge didn’t become urgent until I was about 22. 22 is also an important number in numerology.

13) I have very good people I consider friends scattered across the globe. Some I speak to once a year and some once a week but the love and understanding is eternal.

14) I do not like long road trips. I would rather fly.

15)  I hate driving a car but love riding a motorcycle.

16) I was raised as an only child but have two younger sisters.

17) If I could do it all over I would have joined the Air Force instead of the Army. Not only for the career but for the people.

18) I consider myself a “writer”. This can apply to poems, music or non-fictional short stories that will never be seen by anyone but myself lol

19) I don’t see myself living in the USA for the rest of my life. If I have my way I’ll maintain my citizenship while traveling to various destinations every 2-3 years.

20)  I have a new found and unexplainable passion for Astrology. As above so below.

21) My favorite colors alternate but will always consist of black, red, burgundy or black. Above these always will be purple so I guess at any given time I have 2 favorite colors. Also to be noted my favorite shade of pink is salmon. 

22) I have 6 tattoos. I think I’ll stop at 11… If I get a sleeve I’ll be forced to go to 22.

23) As a child I hated broccoli. Now I love it (as long as it’s cooked right) 

24) Tangerines are my favorite fruit.

25) I am an avid video game player. I love my Nintendo DS and Xbox 360.

26) If I won the lottery I would commit myself to a life of travel, knowledge and opportunity. I would walk up to random people and ask them “questions of the day”. If they answer correctly they would win $1122.

27) I Love. To try to interpret this any further would be useless as your perception may vary from mine.

28) If I could be born in any time frame it would be the 60′s. Hippies rule.

29) My best friend is a singer who lives in California. He’s faced challenges on all planes of existence and is currently happy, successful and inspirational. I am proud to be his friend.

30) If I had “my way” I would be currently living near Tokyo, Japan. In the event this was actual reality this entire questionnaire would be different.

31) For a long time I considered myself “self-conscious”. Now I try my best to be “self-aware”. Two very different ways of life.

32) I’m easily inspired and generally in high spirits. I believe everyone is a King/Queen in their own right. It’s my mission to ensure those within my influence apply this truth to their experience at all times.

33) I love Music. Music loves I.

Below is a link to a very interesting and compelling view point on self appreciation. It’s a short read and includes various quotes from the “highly vibrational” Abraham Hicks. If this interest you, also look into Inelia Benz (www.ascension101.com).

Hope you all enjoy the read! ☮ ♥ ☼

http://www381.pair.com/parkelyw/magazineapril2008/katlearnappreciate.pdf 

This quote envokes a multitude of emotions, ideas, aspirations, beginnings, endings and outlook. I feel like I could go pages upon pages on why I have neglected to share with the world my personal, professional and spiritual growth as of late. If so I would be ignoring the obvious that I wasn’t prepared to explore this growth with myself. With that being said NOW I start anew. My intentions the same but with more experience, opinion and willingness to venture into the unknown to boot.

Currently I reside in Afghanistan as a Human Resource SGT with the historic 82nd Airborne Division. On 29 November 2012 I will be complete in my obligation to my country. I have no ill feelings towards the military nor the people, places and experiences that have accompinied me during my career. There comes a point where what you stand for and believe in may conflict or differ with someone else. In this case that someone is the US Army. I’ve done my time, served my country and feel priveleged to have been able to do so. Now it’s time to serve something greater (in my opinion): Love.

I’m currently studying Astrology through the Astrology Career Institute. This certification program is run by Samuel F. Reynolds, the National Astrologer for Ebony Magazine. Ironically we have the same birthday which is pretty cool. You can check out his blog at http://www.return2thesource.net/ . 

Initially my plans are to start terminal leave 7 October. Within that first week I will return to Richmond VA to visit family and friends and prepare for my ”celebratory liberation” which will include stops in FL (Orlando), TX (Dallas), CA (Los Angeles) and end in Thailand (Bangkok) for my birthday. While in Thailand I will set down with a VA reoresentative and academic counselor. By spring 2013 I will start pursuing my Bachelors Degree in Public Relations through Assumption University in Bangkok Thailand. I would like to simotaneously pursue my PHD in Metaphysics focusing on Spiritual Counseling / Holistic Life Coaching. This degree is Spiritual in nature as well as it’s study focus. Although it will not be recognized in a “tradional” capacity my career will not be categorized as such either. I personally am really excited about my education and what new opportunites and experiences it will bring. I have become an avid reader over the last year 1 and a half or so and knowledge of any kind is something no one can take away from you.

It’s almost 3 AM. The moon is full and my spirits are high despite my surroundings. For those who have taken the time to read this I genuinely appreciate it. I will do my best to ensure you won’t have to wait as long for the next entry. As I continue to share my thoughts, feelings and insights on what I experience in the world I will also share blogs, websites and opinions of those who interest me.  If you feel I would agree with something you have to share please share. Also anyone who happens to be interested in astrology can check out my birth chart. Until next time…

 ~ Peace, Love, Light ~

             ☮ ♥ ☼

“Quoted from a fellow Light Seeker who goes by Scorpio29. Namaste

What is the difference between religion and spirituality? Here’s a handy chart, comparing religion to spirituality. 

Spirituality 

Religion 

Spirituality is inborn. Spiritual experiences are as natural to human beings as breathing. 
Religion was created by humans to explain, contain, and stimulate spiritual experiences. Spirituality is an experience within yourself, inexpressible and unforgettable. 

Religion is other people telling you what that experience is supposed to be. 
Spirituality holds that you and the Divine are One, inseparable. Thus, the purpose of spirituality is simply to fully remember this fundamental truth. Religion claims that the Divine exists outside of you, and you are apart from it. Thus, the purpose of religion is then to make you acceptable to this outside judge. Spirituality asserts that you are inherently perfect, whole, and lovable. You do not need to “heal” or change. Although you will be happier if you realise your perfection, which is what spirituality helps you do. Religion asserts that humans are imperfect and/or ignorant, if not actively sinful and evil. Religion then aims to set you straight and guide you how to improve yourself. Spirituality acknowledges that everyone’s spirituality is uncompromisingly unique; no one can say what another’s spiritual path could be. Religion imposes one person’s spiritual experience upon others. Spirituality aims for personal experience of the Divine, and an internal understanding of what you believe to be true. Religion aims for acceptance of what other people have experienced and said to be true. Spirituality is having a personal, intimate relationship with your Source. Religion seeks a relationship with the Divine, but not union. Religion separates you from the Divine, while seeming to encourage closeness. Spirituality is the seeking of union with the Divine. 

Religion is the rules about the seeking. 
Spirituality does not have rules. The most it offers is guidelines and spiritual practices that have helped others and are likely to benefit you. Religion insists on its rules as absolute truths. Spirituality is internally focused. What occurs is between you and the Divine, alone. Religion is externally focused. The experience isn’t the focus, but whether you’re following the rules is. 

Spirituality is talking to God yourself, and hearing the Divine’s response. 
Religion puts an intermediary (priest) between you and the Divine. It is someone else interpreting the Divine for you. In spirituality, morality is subject only to the approval of the Divine. In religion, morality is dictated by obedience to an authoritarian rulebook (law). The aim of spirituality is to create opportunities for direct experience ofthe Divine. The aim of religion is to make you a cohesive, beneficial member of the congregation. Spirituality is having a mature relationship with your Divine Source. Religion is the toddler-version of spirituality: it is a stepping stone and guide toward spiritual union. Spirituality is learning to be your own Sacred Chalice, your own container for Divine Energy. 

Religion serves as a container for spirituality, for those who have found the real purpose of religion. For others, religion acts as a pseudo-spirituality, relieving them of the responsibility to actually live a spiritual life. 
Spirituality insists that you can only KNOW what you have experienced for yourself. Religion usually demands unquestioning obedience to dogma. You KNOW what you are told to know. In spirituality, everyone has the potential to achieve the goal of full awakening, by whatever path is right for them. In religion, the goal of personal “salvation” is achieved only by those who adhere to its beliefs and rules. Spirituality is meant to serve the Divine, and by extension, all of life. 

Religion is meant to serve spirituality, yet it is commonly twisted around to be exactly the opposite. Or worse, it serves the goals who seek control and “power.” 
Spirituality champions personal power. It reminds us that true power can only be found within yourself, not in controlling people or events. Religion confuses the basic issues of power and control. It tries to control others, rather than seeking to control self. Spirituality seeks to liberate you from dependence in any form. Religion keeps you dependent and spiritally immature . . . unless you perceive the spirituality beyond it.

So I’ve just completed 2weeks of pure excitement and good energy and one of the best Birthdays i’ve had. Went to Tokyo for 5days and fell in love (the city that is) Kicked it with the Dream Team all weekend and just enjoyed life and all the things god has blessed us with. My new GF is starting to realize that I care for her so in turn she is caring more. It feels good. She bought some dope Jeans for me, I can’t wait to style em. This week starts my transition to prepare for the New year. New Goals, New Dreams and New Money.

I have emotions inside of me that can’t be expressed through my pen. This comes as a surprise to being that I’ve ALWAYS been able to express what I feel through scribe if nothing else. Maybe it wouldn’t be considered a song… or poem… 16….or quote. But I was able to express none the less. Maybe this will pass as all things in time due. I hope it does. On a lighter note I have my first photo shoot September 26 Us both being “Amateur” I feel it will be a lovely experience indeed. I’ve been eating right and hitting the gym so I know my body will be where it needs to be. I hope mentally I will beable to say the same thing. I’ve been having trouble sleeping the last 3 days (like 3 hours a night trouble) so I’ma just lay in the dark and hope my mini Coma will come lol. Early morning tomorrow…Range Week BLAH

Yet another Hiatus. I know. I’m the only one who reads this anyway haha (or am I). Anyways to catch up where I left off I’m currently in Okinawa Japan and LOVING LIFE. I’ve seen extreme amounts of pleasure in people and places alike but never in my 21+ years of breathing have I been this contempt and genuinely happy. Some say i’m crazy but i feel it can only get better. I’ve only been here 2 monthes and have seen some beautiful people, places and experienced part of a culture I never thought I would get a chance to explore. As far as love,  I don’t think about it….I mean I think about it but it’s a uneccessary evil haha. Its hard to refrain from reminiscing here especially with all these places to enjoy with a companion but everything happens for a reason, even my solitude so I’ll enjoy this hand i’ve been dealt until a new deal is due. My ACE is none other than one of the coolest, biggest, and most like me on the island. He just came from London so me and him were on the same page off deck when coming out here. Work is work but i’m slowly learning the ropes and trying to accept my role as a leader. Soon I will start commuting to Tokyo so i’m VERY excited Hong Kong and Australia will be soon to follow Life is lovely and people are imperfect…the rest is just that….at rest. Until Next Time:)

SO…I havn’t been a car that long since I left Benning but I’d have to say the last 2days have been insightful as well as necessary. Mini-Vacation would be an understatement!!! I met up with April aroun 930pm and we decided to go out since she doesn’t have to work. Being the “nice” part of town she lives in it should’ve been to no surprise that every restaurant except Denny’s and Wafflehouse closed at 10pm. On top of that the bars closed at 12 and stopped serving food at 11 so we didn’t drink Monday night lol. Teusday we wake to go to the wonderful Ft Dedric and spend time dashing rain drops and eating Burger King. Thanks to a fateful traffic jam we change course and go see some of her old friends in PG county. By this time I get in contact with Mayo (old label mate) and we decide to book it to Baltimore for the night. Him and his room mate meet us BW3s and we proceed to slaughter the Liter of Southern Comfort we snuck in the restaurant lol. 6 shots of Patron, and 28 wings later we decide to crash at Mayo’s spot. I never knew “Benjamin Button” was so boring under the influence lol. But it IS!!! Wake up and MORE Denny’s (some of the WORST customer service i’ve experienced in awhile I might add, MD Get it together) and hit mall for a quick fix (been dieing for something purple smh) Sold My Laptop, paying Bills and getting ready for this trip around the world….TOKYO OR BUST : )

Besides being 1 hell of a song (in opinion) that seems like an appropriate title for this session. Today didn’t start any different than the past few days home…. a lake awakening. Me and Talina finally made the time to get together. Like myself, she found out her (tattoo) artist has changed locations so we substituted artistic scarring with dinner and a movie lol….thats when it began. Me and T ALWAYS have good conversation but I didn’t realize until after the fact that i’ve been deprived of a neutral source of energy so long. No disrespect intended but me and Bena barely speak, me and Shaunda have hard enough time saying Hi & Bye and everyone else is either Married, Pregnant or Unreachable. It helped alot to beable to vent, explain my thoughts, feelings, emotions and cares to someone who was craving to the same thing. Long convo short, NO BACK TRACKING. Gotta stay busy for self, cause no one else will haha. If someone wants to know whats up they’ll ask, if they don’t they’ll just assume anyways. So afterwards we saw the soloist. AN EXCELLANT MOVIE to say the least. Jamie Foxx plays a violinist who is voluntarily homeless in the Greater Los Angelos downtown. Long Story short who just loves Music….classical to be specific. He loves it so much it the only thing that can control him to the point of “human understanding”. The columnist spends time trying to “cure” him but ultimatly realizes some things can’t be cured, only cared after. Its crazy cause we pass people everyday not knowing they’re story, potention or position in this puzzle of life. Even crazier we go on everyday doughting, fighting or even worse, IGNORING our own potential as people. I’ve found that this isn’t healthy nore is it recommended. Greatness starts from within and with that said its time to let it out. Thursday I got another tattoo….my most meaningful to date.

Its a Koi Fish on my left rib cage. It was a gift from my old and dear friend Andrea….she means alot. She’s been through alot in her 20 years, just like any other youth but I actually care pertaining to her so its good to know our time spent was stress free and enjoyable. When asked why I simply stated I wanted “art”, and this is true to an extent. In Japanese culture Koi are denote Love and Friendship. For me it’s a permenant and painful reminder to keep these close yet in control. I already have an idea for my next addition but it will wait until I can get settled in Okinawa.
Did I mention I leave this weekend!? YES….FINALLY. Long awaiting of my arrival i’m SURE lol but it’ll definitly be an experience and an adventure. Its a small island with a alot of potential for growth….But Back to Today!
So Talina asks me what are my plans for the future and I simply explain my dream about Greece and all that. She then ask about family, and i reply “what about them?” She brings up a point that she works at a home for the elderly and it sucks for the residents with 1 or no children. To this I day I tell Penny not to expect Grand Children but who am I to leave my assets, empire and expression to? Much more on my mind but my thoughts are scrambled and inconsitant beyond belief so I guess I’ll end with this.

Its CLEARLY a problem everyone has moved on accept me with certain aspects and expectations of relations. In my defense its hard not to when i’m home. Until then I’ll continue to bite my tongue so everytime I eat its a bitter and annoying reminder…
“Don’t listen to close they’re words are like guns, with bullets that fly and kill what you’ve won”