Winter… But Falls coming
Expression…
Favor…
Fashion…
Season….
Spirit…
Love…
Lust…
Space…

A lot….Love Learned…Love lost….Love in general. It’s real…..a true force. Some things you can’t prove atleast in my opinion…..Luck, coincidence… These things involve chance and personal faith but Love is pure truth at the essence. People may not be truthful, the experience may be more beautiful for some than others but no dought about it, it exist. I’m thankful for it although I swear I would be just fine without it….it’s like the time I met this French Supermodel….her perfume lingired and stayed with me for Days….amazing since I don’t have a strong sense of smell. Love lingers….not for days but decades. For some I guess that’s why its so painful. The worst thing about it….my definition is different than your definition. Who are you to tell me i’m wrong and your right or vica versa? The good use it, the bad use it. TBC..

Your words sting like my first Bee Sting….yes the initial shock is over welming but as times pass the throbbing becomes irritating as it itches and begins to swell….You are powerful beyond measure when it pertains to me. Why is as unspoken as it is reasonable.  True Love. I’ve never been more disturbed by an insult than to be called a “coward”. The same term my mother uses for Bam Bam, the man who simply wasn’t the Man… the same word used to destribe our Then President Bush during Katrina and this financial crisis….and the same word that equals death in the Ninja Realm….ar my actions that catastrofic in real world or is this your opinion of me since I failed at “Greatness”. We are one…..Love, Joy, Pain, Rain, Reason…..although motivated by different forces and focused on different emotions we are 1 and that won’t change. I felt some type of way when you hung up on me. REALLY.I wanted to scream with a thousand toungues, Tattoo arabic war symbols all over my body and  set my radious on fire while recording the whole thing just so I can remind myself of how weak and vulnerable I really am. You Don’t complete “me”….but “the” is definitly reality. You want warmth….affection….”No Bullshit”. Maybe I can’t be the one to give what is requested or required but I try….notice that…. “I try”. Present tense and a continuation of the current action. Love has everything but nothing to do with this letter. This is me trying to “think” and “communicate” while I still can.
No response necessary.
Be blessed and higher as required.

I like falling in Love I just can’t seem to Stay there
I try to be understood but reality is I don’t understand myself….not fully
I don’t like Normal and Reality is boring
Dream is the SHit
Drake is pretty fly to be light skinned
I’m pretty fly myself haha
Even if it stopped today I will Always Love Regina. She’s showed the truest essence of this Emotion thus far
I reminisce way to much….
I Love my friends and family but I hate being around them to long
Maybe Fairy Tales arn’t so bad….
I have a spending problem
My mom is a strong person
I don’t think much….unless i’m writing
I need a real Journal
Discipline and Structure are necessary Evils
I like taking pictures
Webcam is pretty cool
I was Born when I was Broken
More is Less, Less is More

rem⋅i⋅nisce

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/ˌrɛməˈnɪs/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [rem-uh-nis] Show IPA Pronunciation
–verb (used without object), -nisced, -nisc⋅ing. to recall past experiences, events, etc.; indulge in reminiscence.

My most prominent past time is also my most unproductive vice. I hate it but I can’t help it. When your in this world all you can do is appreciate and remember things for what they were. I’d have to say today is the day I will succomb no more to the promises of my past or expectations of my then future (or currently present). I’m ready to come home and start a new. Blessed as i’ll ever be and as humble as I know

“Pain is weakness leaving the body.” SO i assume that getting hurt is actually a good thing in the long run. Live Strong or Die Weak….either way its coming. I’m grateful for true friends, understanding family and lessons learned. A little less than month until I leave Iraq!!!

Ironically one of America’s #1 advocates of change realizes most of my internal struggle with refusing not myself, but those around me to change. Why wouldn’t I? If I could still be with Heavyweight and The Blueprint and do what I do now I’d be good. Guess that’s not how it works …..on a lighter note life is Good. I think Regina is the first person I admitted to her AND myself of some of my weaknesses and not actually be weakened because of it. Truth…sometimes hurts but is beautiful none the less. My mom and her are getting close…I don’t get jealous persay but I definitly would hate for me and her to disagree and my mom be on her side lol, that would suck. Even if i’m wrong I should still be RIGHT in her eyes!!! Birth trumps friendship (Sorry Lovely) lol, but all in all things are good…great. I’m about to start working with SGT R so I can step my game up with a camera. I think I’m more interested in stills than anything else. I also have found some new aquaintences in the unit. A group of down to earth, outspoken, out the box people. “Breath of fresh air” would be a complete understatement. Good speaking with you but i’ma take time to waste time for once…

Life is beautiful not because of all the colors I seem but my eyes failure to simply focus on the black and white.

Unless we’re walking Along the Mosaic itself I have no reason to and will continue to see what I want and do what I see until that reality is no more. I’m very thankful for my friends and family and look forward to a safe return home. I got about 35 diffrent people gifts including my MAIN Circle…I think in “no particular order” My mom, Bena and Ray will prolly be the most surprised…prolly the Gotti’s as well just cause they wouldn’t think they made that much of an impact on me when they did. Definitly Anxious and waiting

tem·po·rar·y  [tem-puh-rer-ee] Pronunciation Key – Show IPA Pronunciation adjective, noun, plural -rar·ies.

As much as I chase dreams I realize true lessons come from walking through and analyzing my nightmares. Like Dreams, Nightmares can occur asleep aswell as awake and manytimes come and a much diffrent form tan your average “flash in the middle of the night”. People, Situations, Past, Present and even the future holds traces of them. I find it odd enough that I ALWAYS learn from them so although i know unpleasant and unforgettable they will be as atleast growth or understanding will come in the end. I think the biggest leason I’ve learned in 20+ years and can finally begin to fathom is that people are temporary. They will come and go as they please and although the memories remain bitter sweet and linger longer than they ever should the fact is people are just that: people. Imperfect, Impatient and trying to get on with this thing called life just like myself. I don’t agree that ALL people are temporary and many people that are many times don’t mean to be as such but the truth is the truth.With 8 billion people around the world its sad to think but i’ve experienced 1st hand “No one is as close as you think, and one person you seldom think of just may be the closest”. I would agree that I’ve been a “temporate” person much of my youth and young adulthood because I never could get situated in my head what I want. Now things are smoothing out physically and mentally, people are showing whether they’re here to stay or leave and I’m trying to do my part and keep those close as close as possible without shunning the many new faces, family and associates that will come in the near future. ”Theres a Thin Line between Thin Lines….” A few more monthes and I’ll beable to re-adjust to regular living. 8 hour shifts, weekends off and the freedom to commit to the people and past times I enjoy most. Music, Masonry and Movement

Okinawa has about 6monthes of regular life left haha ….                                                                                  Feels G.O.O.D. to be back

I spoke to Bena and Bunny today!!! I started off the day wit some crazy energy….negative as hell. But i shook they by 10 so all in all its been a good day. I was dangling at church but it was a wonderful Sermon, HopefullyI’ll beable to perform one of my pieces next month…Couldn’t meet with my Corner Stones at lunch cause we gettin ready for the cookout….soon that’ll be someone getting ready for us! 95…..I can wait definitly. Just can’t wait to get my travels started,much to learn with the craft. My dad seems very interested upon my decision. Id be lying if I didn’t say he played a part. But I mean,who wouldn’t wanna be apart of somethin so significant? History, Prowless, Respect, Knowledge, Religion….its all there and waiting. Onward I say! I just signed up for life so no matter how unoften or random I write just know I’ve always got somethin to chat about sooner or later. Readin thru my entries since Day 1 I can say I’ve changed some and grown alot but all in all I wouldn’t have a re-done a thing…not even deploying. Helped me do alotta gardning and see alotta snakes I thought were neighbors. It is what it is….Gotta get ready for the Darkness…Saturday the door Opens…